Anxious Love

In the darkness of night, my mind wanders,

Wondering...

About you and I.

Reminiscing about how

When the sun is up and basks upon our face as we

wish each other good day,

How our hearts dance to a symphonic beat,

wondering what each other has to say.

Passing precious time as I stare at your face,

Thanking God for His Mercy and Grace,

For blessing me with someone so intelligent, funny and sweet,

Endlessly making me feel complete.

But when the brightness of day starts to diminish 

and is replaced by the darkness of night,

The Devil comes in to play - 

Causing a series of frights,

Tearing up and destroying the surety of my love for you,

Creating uncertainty and doubt of your love for me.

Demanding for answers, wars break out between my mind and heart,

Though I'm very well certain that your love for me will never depart..

Clenching on to my chest to calm this aching heart 

that's shivering with anxiety,

Silencing my tears from breaking out violently,

Assuring myself that this is all just a phase that I'm going through,

Only because I'm madly in love with you.

Anxieties are nothing but exaggerated feelings that should -

From the start, be discontinued

But thoughts can be haunting and it's undeniable to say

That it's hard for logic to prevail over emotion,

As my mind is ever ready to beat itself up and come up with commotions.

It's a continuous war I go through just to go to sleep,

To think about you and trying not to weep,

To cradle and pacify myself to hush this noisy mind

And to know you love me for certain and will always be mine.

Bear with me and love me more, even with my anxieties,

Help me tame this emotion so that I can behave with utmost propriety,

Continuously remind me and teach me to relax and say

That your love for me is here and it's here to stay.